Thanks for sharing your stories, they have given me much hope.
Yesterday, my husband and I had our first ultrasound and ob visit since confirming our 5th pregnancy (We have 3 wonderful sons, and lost our first pregnancy). The appointment was bumped up from it's original date due to some bleeding I am having. The ob n.p. that examined me said that I was still having some bleeding, but that everything else felt fine. She even commented that though I should be around 8 weeks, my uterus felt like it was 10 weeks along. (I know I have an extremely tilted uterus, so I chalked that information up to that), though her guess was maybe twins?! We laughed and then were led to our ultrasound.
It was a transvaginal ultrasound, and the tech's silence and nonsharing of what she was seeing was making me very nervous. Before she left the room to go get my doctor, she briefly showed us the screen, which I clearly saw a baby, sac, etc... She told me to stay put, and my husband and I held hands and our breaths till she returned. The doctor then told me that they were going to remeasure the fetus, because they needed to be sure it was over 6mm. She told me to ignore their "tech-talk" and she would let me know what was going on in a minute. After a minute or two, she informed us that because the baby is measuring between 8-9mm, they should definitely see a heartbeat and they don't. The news was devastating. However, they did NOT do any blood work on me at any point, so I have no idea if my HCG levels have dropped. Should I demand that they do blood work? The doc told me that either the heart never developed, or it simply stopped beating. They haven't said why I am bleeding either. They're assuming my body has started the miscarriage process, but the blood is extremely Brownish in color, and I am NOT in any pain, nor do I feel any less pregnant at this point. (other than very depressed now, and concerned about every little physical feeling I am having.)
We opted to schedule another u/s for next Thursday, as neither of us can believe our baby could be so big w/o a heartbeat! Does a baby grow at all w/o a heartbeat? They claim me to be around 8 weeks, but I KNOW when conception occurred and technically it would be me around 6 weeks, 3 days right now, give or take. So, even though the baby measures so big (my 2nd son was ginormous at 8.5lbs at birth btw) is it possible that the baby's true age, combined with my tilted uterus would be an issue in detecting a heartbeat? Or, what if there ARE two babies in there, and the FRONT baby hasn't made it... could there be a second baby behind it that is why I still feel pregnant? (referring to the fact that my uterus felt to be 10 weeks by the n.p.) I've heard many stories of the "hidden sibling" and many mothers never knowing that there is a 2nd baby.
I know this is a long post. I apologize. I am desperately trying to keep my heart positive and my hopes up. We have prayed and will continue to do so. Like I said, I only bleed now and again (mostly during a bm), the blood is dark, I have no pain, no cramping, and we definitely SAW a baby! It's in God's hands. The one thing I truly learned thus far is that I thought I was done having children after #3... I'd gladly welcome a #4 and still hope to do so in the Spring of '11. Please pray for us, and thank you dearly for sharing these stories... this forum has lifted my spirits and given us more hope!