No idea whats going on...

[darbyfamily]

I dont know where to start... I guess at the beginning.

Lmp was June 26th, we timed bd'ing right, and I started testing on July 23rd (my birthday) even though I knew it was too early. I got some bfns and then on thursday I got a hint of a bfp on an equate test....but, AF seemed to arrive that afternoon, so I chalked it up to an evap. Bled friday, saturday, sunday, spotting monday, tuesday...so, not as long as my normal cycles, on wednesday I got the bright idea to test, just checking to see if I'd get an evap on this new batch of tests from Save on tests that I'd received AFTER Af showed up.

WOW, that was NO evap!!! that was a positive test! On August 1st I was thrilled. I went to the doctor for confirmation on thursday, and kept testing all week... lots of bfps and doctor confirmation. We told family that weekend because they were in town and I couldnt keep it quiet.

Monday, august 6th found me in the ER for 6 hrs with extreme pain on my right side, since early that morning. some brownish spotting off and on, but not much really. Too early for an ectopic, no real explaination, beta was only 432, so too low for them to see anything by transvag or other ultrasound. Go to doc on thursday morning, have blood drawn and we'll do another ultrasound when hcg is over 1000.

More horrible pain tuesday, but wednesday was pain free...but, beta was only 218 Likely miscarrying. I dont think I had already when I had the 'period' because my tests kept getting darker and darker up until the ER visit. I had 25 internet tests and they began to get lighter and lighter as days went on...

still spotting brownish just barely, nothing on pad but just hints when I wiped. test sunday was light... but temps still above cover line and then yesterday I tested again and instead of lighter still, it was quite a bit darker than sundays test...

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todays test just as dark as yesterdays and I was up four times in the night to pee...I woke up starving (I hate bkfast and normally dont eat til around 11, just dont want to)

went to bed a bit nauseated last night, though I dont normally get that way in pregnancy.

I've been told stories from friends of losing a twin, numbers dip temporarily and then start rising...one has a 4 yr old girl after a pain/bleeding/low numbers episode just exactly like mine. an actual friend, not just an online story.

still, I had a ruptured tubal in 1993, so it does make me a bit leery honestly....but still no real pain to speak of, just occasional spotting.

This mornign was our first bd'ing since all of this started, and I had reddish spotting after that, so I guess we need to hold off til I know what my body is doing.

I just dont know if I am waiting to miscarry...too afraid to really HOPE that its a good sign to have a positive/darker test again....am I waiting around for major cramping and bleeding? did I already pass it? I hate the unknown most. Obviously, at 37 yrs old, I dont want to wait around for months before we can start trying again...and if its a tubal I dont want to wait too long to find that, or Im out of the game entirely

any thoughts, input?

when did your numbers fall below coverline when you miscarried? did you temp until you knew it was over?

THANK YOU FOR READING ALL OF THIS...I just needed to get it out.

[WKG24]

HI Jennifer,

To answer your last questions, my temps didn't fall below the coverline until I had completely miscarried..they dropped slightly at the onset of the mc, but didn't go way down to pre-ovulatory temps until after it was all done. It took a process of a few weeks for me.

I will say that from my experience, taking tests one day after the next didn't seem to indicate anything positive or negative, with any of my pregnancies (3). WIth this current pregnancy, I took a test one day, it was light, and the next day it was lighter. ANd here I am ready to pop..so I wouldn't necessarily go by that. Each test has a different amount of dye in it and it can just read the urine and process it differently. Even the same batch of tests in the same box.

When is your next appt? I have heard of the vanishing twin thing and that is maybe what you are going through, I hope. I do hope that this is a good outcome for you.

WEs

[darbyfamily]

Thank you for your help! I will keep that in mind. I guess only time will really tell. Its been a week since they told me I was likely miscarrying though and I've only had just tiny tinges of brownish spotting since then...until today, a bit more and reddish, but dh was...umm... well.. in the mood, and it'd been more than 2 wks and so I caved. I figure, honestly, if somethings going to happen, it just is, and I cant really do that much to stop it or cause it at this point. its in Gods hands....

but now that I see red, I kinda wish I'd waited longer.

I'll update here tomorrow after I get results back

[WKG24]

As for the intercourse, I did spot with two of my three pregnancies, ironically my successful ones. I tend to agree wtih you though, it is in God's hands and if something is not going right, I don't think that having sex will change the course of things for the worse, or if things are going fine, that it will prevent a healthy pregnancy.

Good luck and keep us posted.
WEs

[darbyfamily]

well... I have no idea what this means, honestly, and the doctor I saw is an intern, so not a lot of experience under her belt, but ...

my beta today was 460

she said:

A. its a non viable pregnancy that will eventually miscarry
B. its a tubal pregnancy or
C. its a pregnancy that is slow to start off and will leave us wondering what all this mess was at the beginning.

I have no clue but I give up on trying to figure it out.

next blood test is friday am and I'll know more on that by friday afternoon. Then repeat blood work on monday AM and an ultrasound if numbers keep climbing.

[goldenfriend]

I didn't start temping until after my 1st miscarriage but never stopped after that. When I miscarried really early at 4 weeks my temp dropped immediately the day I started to miscarry and my whole cycle actually went right back to normal so it seemed until I found out that I was pregnant again! I was 6 1/2 weeks along when I started bleeding again right after I was just in to see the little hearbeat only to find nothing 3 days later. Anyways I ended up having a d & c the same day a little over a week ago now and my temperatures are still up! I wish they would go back down so I would feel like my body was getting back to normal. Hope this helps.

Suz

[goldenfriend]

Oh, I forgot to add that I did that whole testing strips thing and I found out that with my second miscarriage I did indeed get darker strips and then lighter one's and found out after having my levels rechecked and lack of symptoms that I was indeed miscarrying. On my following pregnancy I tested again and again, they got darker and then 1 day I got a lighter one and totally freaked out. I had decided to retest agin to see if it was the strip and indeed it was, same strips and everything and one just decided to be lighter then the other- I stopped testing at this point! Unfortunately I lost that one too but will probably not obsess on the tests anymore.

Good luck

Suz

[darbyfamily]

Ended up with the Methotrexate shot spent the night in the hospital after a trip to the ER...

just waiting for this to be over now.

[goldenfriend]

Jennifer

I am very sorry to hear that, was this a tubal pregnancy then? Please take care I know it is hard to go through this.

Take care
Suz

[darbyfamily]

Yes, tubal, they saw nothing in utero at 7 wks, and could see an enlarging spot on the right tube.

Betas on friday were 600 and today, 106 on the way down, and I know its a good thing...but still hard to go through.

Thanks ya'll for the help and encouragement. I'll visit now and then to try to encourage others who are in a rough spot too.