I can not begin to express the miracle of finding this site and reading all these stories of life and hope. I have two kids and four miscarriages between them, the last one in september at 12 weeks. At end of October I had a feeling that I was preganant, but the following day started my pees and I ruled that out.
Then last week I did a pregnancy test due to extreme exuation and frequent urination, the test came out positive. Was excited, anxious and afraid. On tuesday this week, 28/11 i went for an ultrasound. The sonographer struggled to see anything that she had to call another dr for a second oppinion.
They found a 5w3d gestational sac with no fetal heart. I couldnt be 5wks, if i concieved in october, according to my counting I should be 7-8wks there about.
I left the hospital feeling broken and deeply disturbed by this 5weeks no heart finding. I got on the net to do research and I self diagonised my condition as a blighted ovam, with an eminent miscarriage. One miscarriage is bad enough to drive a woman crazy, but five times is too much to deal with.
Then in my qest for more information I accidentally or miraculously stumbled on this site yesterday. I must admit that since yestrday all am doing is reading and reading every single posting on the misdiagonised forum. I cant seem to find interest in my work or anything else apart from these stories of hope.
With information from this site I got my dr to schedule me for another ultrasound on 12/12 hoping for the best. I remain hopeful that like many women, the sun will shine for me again.
However between now and my next ultrasound, I will not be cast in self pit & depression - waitng for my fate. I have found enough strength in the stories on this site, such that I can handle anything. As one woman wrote "its not over until its over."
Put me in your prayers