At the end of April I found out that I was pregnant. May 6th I went to the er because I was bleeding and feared I was miscarrying.
They took my blood, did an exam, and did an ultrasound. The ultrasound showed two empty sacs. Double blighted ovum. My hcg was around 25,000, which was normal I guess. They told me that I would miscarry and feel pregnant until that time. Meanwhile I scheduled to see my doctor. He did an ultrasound for himself on the 12th. I was exactly six weeks along. This time the ultrasound showed only one empty sac. Still looked like a blighted ovum. The doctor told me to expect to miscarry. Although he believes in God he told me that some things are just hard for God and one is making a baby. He said the "sac" was easy to create but the baby is harder. My hcg 38,000. Still going up and still good.
I went home mourning. I was depressed and prepared myself for the worse. Losing a baby is the hardest thing I have ever been through in my life. I felt like my life was being sucked from my body.
My third ultrasound was on the 24th. I was nearly nine weeks along. As the doctor walked in the room before starting the ultrasound he said, "It will be a miracle from God if we see a baby today."
I said, "God can do that, if he wants to." You see, I really believe in the power of prayer. Not because we are such righteous people and we pray so perfectly. No, but prayer moves the heart of God!
The doctor started the ultrasound transvaginally (they were all done transvaginally). Instantly I saw a baby!!!!!!!!!! I spoke before anyone else in the room. "I know I'm pretty hopeful, but isn't that a baby?"
He said, "It sure looks like it." He kept looking and kept making comments like, "This is a miracle." "This is incredible." "WOW." He was honestly amazed. Apparently he had never seen something like this before.
He said the heart sounded good.
So, where had my baby been for the weeks before my ninth? He didn't have an answer for that.
There are some things the medical proffesion simply can't explain. They don't know everything.
I had been told that I have a titled uterus and many woman on this site said that they did as well and later saw a baby after they didn't for several weeks. So, maybe that has something to do with it....maybe not. I don't know. The doctor said it doesn't.
My only message is.....HOLD ON. PRAY PRAY PRAY.
There were days in those three weeks that I wanted to go ahead and get the D&C just to end the emotional pain and move on. There were days when I just wanted to throw in the towel. There were many days that hope was very very far away. KEEP HOPE until you have to let go. Don't believe what they tell you. They are wrong sometimes. The wait is worth it and woman from this site are essential to the journey. I found hope and blessing here.