. I asked about 15 other ppl if they seen what I was seeing bcuz I just wanted it to be real. So we head back to the PT section and this time I got a 5 pk of digitals. I get home put the food up down a bottle of water in 2 seconds rip open the pk an got to business, and then there it was the letters i was dying to see P-R-E-G-N-A-N-T!! I ran over to Mimi's she lived 4 doors down showed her the test and she screamed. So I calculated I would be about 4weeks. The next day i went to work and felt a couple cramps then my back started to hurt so bad I could barely stand up straight I went to break roomand sat down for about 15 min and started to feel better so I went back to my register and was ok the rest of the day. After much debate with my husband I decided to go to the ER on post (hubby is in military)while there I gave a urine sample then the doc came in and told me I wasn't preg I told him about the all the tests I had taken at home( i used all the tests in the box) so he went on to tell me that it was probably something I had eaten that gave the pos result. I told him I wanted blood drawn to check my hcg level he went on to tell me there was no need b/c I wasn't preg after I went off on him he finally agreed. When those results came back about 2hrs later the doc apologize and told me my levels were at 43 and that I and sent me for an U/S I kept my eyes on the screen the whole time and didn't see a thing the tech asked me if I was taking fertility drugs about 4 times because he had never seen levels that low in a 4wk 3day preg. After gettin back to my room the doc concluded that I was wrong about my lmp and I wasn't as many wks as previously thought.So with that I was sent home only to have the same pains. I don't know if any of you have experience with military hospitals but I knew I needed a second opinion and NOT at the same hospital.Went I got home I told hubby everything that went on(he stayed home w/ our 3yro daughter) The next day I went to work and from work headed to the other hospital. I went through the same things as before only this time the urine was pos and the hcg had doubled to 84 an this doc tells me that if I am correct about my lmp then my hcg is really low. And also sends me to U/S where this tech sees something in my right ovary. Back in my room and the doc tells me that it could be the baby and my uterus is empty or that it could just be that it's really early and it's possibly a cyst on the ovary and tells me to call my G/P. So a wk later I go see my doc he sends me for another U/S and more blood work and my hcg is at 1495 and it's comfirmed it's not a normal preg the tech calls my doc office which across the street and he tells me to get there asap when I get there I go to the check in window the girl takes my name then gets up an walks away next thing I know shes opening the door and telling me to follow her. So now I'm feeling scared worried confused guilty like as if it's my fault and tryin to hold back tears. When my doc comes in he hands me a white slip that says BED REST and tells me to give it to my boss b/c I'm not gonna be a work for a while b/c of the risk of rupture and I start boo hooing and shaking. he gets on his cell and calls his friend who is an obgyn and asks if she can fit me in for the next day.At first she says no then he goes over the details and she and says ok.And after the run around for my insurance I got in to see her on 8/25 . afterward I go to my car and I just sit there then I call hubby and give him the news I think he took it hard but you know how some men are. 8/27at 5wk 5days my hcg was 6128. 8/29 She does an u/s in her office and finds what looks like an empty sac in my right tube that kinda puts my mind at ease b/c theres no baby in it so then she sends me back to the same u/s tech I seen on my 2nd trip to the er they have better u/s machine there. I get squirted with the freezing gel we hate and then I turn to the monitor and after about 5min she finds my lining is thick and then the sac but it wasn't empty. I looked at my baby searching for that little flutter movement of the heart and it wasn't there hot tears burned my eyes and slid into my ears I couldn't control myself the tech had to stop and get another tech with a better eye and steadier hands to pinpoint the actual location. The baby was in my tube not my ovary but it was right at the edge and with a little push into my uterus my edd woulda been 4/17/09 3 days after my daughters bday. so the tech call my obgyn and she tells me to head over there stat and I do. In the process I call hubby to tell him whats going on, at the time he was in school and away from home and couldn't leave its crucially important to the military person who is trying to get promoted and they stay in the barracks with limited visits in the day for 2wks. I mean theres only so much you can say over the phone ya know I felt so alone and we had just moved to Fort Hood so all we really had was each other.Back at the doc office she tells me b/c the baby didn't have a heartbeat I can be treated with methotrexate also on 8/29 My doc wasn't allowed to carry the drug in her office so I had to go on base go through more blood work and 4 more u/s I finally get the shots one in each booty cheek. afterward I had to get my blood drawn every wk until oct 1st b/c it took that long to get my hcg back to 0 so it kinda wasn't really over for me until then.
Dec 08
Once again we came up on orders to be stationed in Fort Campbell but we didn't have to report there until Jan 10 09 so we had our things shipped to Campbell and placed in storage. In the mean time we decided to drive up to Ohio to spend the holidays with my in-laws we got there on 12/18. Now back in Nov my daughter starts to say "my mommy has a baby in her tummy" and ppl would say 'oh we're so happy for you', funny thing is ,I wasn't preg. Yes my Nov period was late but I had taken a million tests and went to the doc so I knew I wasn't and we didn't discuss that in front of her either. And we didn't tell her to say it she just kept saying it she finally stopped for about 2wks. So while in OH I caught a cold so I was in bed one night and she wouldn't leave my side for anything so I put noggin on the tv and drifted off a little while later hubby was coming to check on me I heard him on the really old creeky stairs (it woke me up) and my whole body hurt so I didn't want to move he couldnt tell I was awake. So he asks dd what shes up too she was laying with her head on my belly she looked up at him and says " I'm listening to my mommies baby shh" I looked down at her then at him we were like umm... ok...?? then she takes off and informs her G-ma of the "baby". So new years eve I say hey can't hurt to spend a $1 on a test right? I took it and bam a BFP I get one more test and get another BFP so now we're like omg if God didn't just send us a message through the lil then we're all looney. So I start feeling preg b/c I didn't b4 I got sensitive to smells and incredibly tired and I wanted to chop my nipples off they were so sore hungry all the time. We were so happy but I was a worried that the ectopic would happen again and hubby just kept sayin don't worry be happy and I was but I still couldn't shake the thought of it being something bad plus something just felt off.1/8/09 Hubby leaves to Campbell to report in and find an apt. get the house together on 1/10 I go through my usual morning routine and then I have to pee so I go and I felt a drip I looked down and there was blood at first I thought maybe it's ok b/c I had spotting with dd then I noticed it was more that spotting and all I kept saying was no no no no no no plz God no. His mom worked at the hospital a mile away and as I coming out of the bathroom she was calling on the house phone I told her what was happening an she called her hubby and he came right over to take me to the er when I got there his mom was already waiting for us. they told me as of lmp I was 6wks 6days did a pelvic exam they seen there were some dark red clots but my cervix was closed and that was a good sign. but I was cramping and my back was killing me so I knew what the outcome would be already. they took blood and sent me for a u/s by this time the bleeding had picked up in the u/s room once again my uterus was empty and nothing in my tubes either so later on the doc tells me the my hcg around 150 and it should be over 1,000 I broke down I felt defeated and the harder I cried the more blood and clots came out and the physical pain got worse after hours in the er we went home and I became numb over the next few days. I felt nothing for this baby what I felt was relief and idk why. I felt more for my August baby than I did for this one. Then I started to feel bad b/c I didn't feel anything my baby. But I now realize I had delayed emotion the first wk of feb. I cried every night. and for a while I was so afraid of getting pg again I didn't want hubby to touch me at all. But he's helping me to deal and if I need to vent he's got 2 ears. So thanks for reading my story God bless
