My Story:
I've been monitoring my fertility by BBT for a number of years. I started night-time weaning my toddler a few months ago in hopes of conceiving again. My cycle finally returned and set about keeping track. The beginning of last month I started feeling ill. I had a constant headache and nausea. I was only 5 dpo so a BFP didn't come into my mind at that time. After a week of this I finally tested and got a BFP at 11 dpo, the earliest I've ever gotten a positive. About 2 weeks later I was having severe abdominal pain. I went to the hospital where the Dr's found the gestational sac and two big cysts on my ovaries. It measured 5 weeks, right on schedule. Another Dr came on duty and discharged me with a diagnosis of threatened abortion. I disagreed with it and said so; I wasn't dilated or bleeding. They did an hCG test and told me to follow up in 2 days. I did and my numbers had doubled. Then I went in a 3rd time, right before going out of town. When I returned, I called to get my results and was told the #'s hadn't doubled and it looked like I was miscarrying. I was still nauseated and it didn't make sense. The MW's office said that I needed to go in and gave an u/s, it was scheduled and I went in. The sac measured 6w 4d and appeared empty. I commented to the tech about it being empty and she said it looked like a blighted ovum and I should go home and prepare for a miscarriage. That it should happen within the week. I had some light spotting, but I suspected it was because of the internal ultrasound.
So I went home shocked and in disbelief. Something about it didn't sit right with me. I'm a Christian Childbirth educator and I know what God says about pregnancy and birth. That he doesn't want us to 'cast our fruit before it's time'. I stood on the word and made declarations over and over, all the while being green with nausea. I got a call two weeks ago from my MW's office saying that I needed to go in to see a Dr to schedule a D&C. I asked if I could wait and the office told me I had to go in or I'd be labeled 'non-compliant'. I went in and talked to the Dr. I explained that my uterus was tilted and my other children didn't show up on u/s's until 8 weeks, sometimes later. I said if I was going to miscarry then I wanted it to happen naturally. I also said I'd like to wait to schedule a D&C. He was the 1st person to really listen to me. He said I could wait as long as I was comfortable, even if it was 3 or more weeks. He scheduled me to go back in a week, on September 11th for an ultrasound. It seemed to be an ominous date. I spotted lightly for about 4 days, but again, I felt that it was because of the internal exam I was given. But I didn't have fear. I held on to God's promises. I went in for the ultrasound and immediately my baby came in to view! With a
158bpm! It measured 6w6d, about 5 weeks behind my calculations, but that's ok! I know when I conceived, because there are no other possible dates!
I told very few people about the diagnosis. And I'm glad I didn't. None of them, even the Christian ones, believed there was any hope. But I still believed and remained faithful to God's promise.
ahead!
