I decided to share my story with you here, well, my story so far, because I have found some comfort reading some of your stories, and I hope to god that my story will end up being one of those positive stories.
First of all I have to tell you what has happened to me so far: 2 miscarriages.
My first pregnancy ended at 15 weeks because my baby had a full trisomy 9. I ended up going to the hospital at 16 weeks to remove him
. Pregnancy wise, all went well, other than me being in a very aggressive mood and having a bad feeling since day one
My second pregnancy didn't last very long, it ended at around 6-7 weeks, and I do not know why. I ended up taking abortion inducing pills one week after the baby had died.
I then had my karyotype, and my husbands, and all was well.
We tried again, and got pregnant again.
At 5 weeks 1d, 2 and 3d, I had some slight brownish discharge. But at 5w 3 d, a bit more came out, just about 2 cms. I freaked and I went to the maternity to check what was happening. The doctors said they could see my uterus was enlarged, and the sac, but could not see the baby yet, but it was normal. They told me to wait two more weeks (yeah right).
So I called my doctor. I didnt want her to be my doctor again, but the one I had chosen for this pregnancy was on holidays. She told me to get on baby aspirine, and progesterone and to do the hcg tests.
My first value was 12001, and my second was 18481. It had gone up, but not 100%, more like 50%.
So I texted my doctor with these results and asked the doctor if she wanted to see me.
She said something like " These results tell us that your pregnancy is not evolving like we would like. It is best for you to stop taking everything, and let nature take its course."
I was gutted, shocked, angry, so angry at her. She didn't even want to see me! She never even asked me later if I was ok, nothing!
So I called my mother, crying. Told her I was pregnant again, told her all of the above.
My mother said "No, we are going to my private hospital" and off we went.
Baby was there, heartbeat fine, size fine. This doctor became my new doctor. He told me the hcg results were not encouraging, but he also said that had I not had 2 previous miscarriages, he wouldn't be as worried. He told me it was unfair on the baby to give up, and also put me on lovenox, a blood thinner.
Week six, one 2 cm blob of brown mucus comes out. I panic again, call my mom, tell her it is over. She says "No, we are goin to the hospital" and off we went.
Baby was there, heartbeat fine.
So I keep having regular scans with the first doctor I got at this hospital, all fine.
Week 10, very slight brown discharge, baby was fine, saw baby move, looked so perfect
I was so happy. My doctor said that by week 12 he wanted me to go off the Lovenox as the risks of having blood clot issues were lower, but I told him I wanted to keep taking it, just in case.
Week 12 and a bit, the dreaded nuchal scan. So nervous, this was the one where I found out my first baby had a plethora of problems,
, where my world just fell from my feet.
The scan doctor said the baby looked fine, all measurements looked fine, organs looked fine. I cried with relief!
I saw the baby again one more time, around week 14, all seemed fine still.
And now I am on the verge of 17 weeks. I am showing already, my mother wants me to tell everyone before her bday in november (I told her I'll hide my pregnancy from people that 'don't matter that much' (you know what I mean) for as long as I can and want.
I'll be having my next scan on her bday actually. I hope it is good news :/
So this is my story for now. I'll keep you updated here and hopefully one day this will bring a sigh of relief to some very nervous mommies.